Living with chronic illness and, in my case, its unpredictability, means lots of surprising manifestations of pain and discomfort, several of which are present at this time and wreaking their own form of havoc on my life. Last night, loud-talkin’ knees and soft tissue pain took center stage, so I slept on the couch (didn’t want to have to climb up onto my tall bed). Waking to the cat’s call for food at 4:30 this morning, then worry taking the upper hand for awhile and not being able to return to sleep, I did my best to just breathe and practice trust. Just before sleep came, and having asked for a message from Guides, High Self, or Jeshua, I heard, “You are just a spool of thread in the fabric of life; without you, it would all unravel.” The message, I suppose, is that I am – and you are – integral to life itself. Every experience we have, every thought we hold, and every ounce of love, fear or hatred we give is equally important to the whole. In fact, it IS the Whole of the All That Is. God is ALL of this.
I started to hear music in my head (ever-present) shortly thereafter. Mary Chapin Carpenter’s song, Between Here and Gone, is what I went to sleep by and woke up to. Here are a few verses:
Now I’m just wonderin’ how we know where we belong
In a song that’s left behind, in the dream I couldn’t wake from
Could I’ve felt the brush of a soul that’s passing on
Somewhere in between, here and gone?
Up above me, wayward angels
A blur of wings and grace
One for courage, one for safety
One for just in case
I thought a light went out but now the candle shines
I thought my tears wouldn’t stop then I dried my eyes
And after all of this, the truth that holds me here
Is that this emptiness is something not to fear
Yeah, I’ll keep wondering how we know where we belong
After all the journeys made and the journeys yet to come
When I feel like giving up instead of going on
Somewhere in between here and gone.
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